The m0vie was cute..th0ugh I still think dat Madagascar was m0re hilari0us..the funniest character f0r The Wild has t0 be the Koala (Nigel)..hahaha..tak leh tahan seh..The theatre was super pitch black..We sat at the wr0ng aisle.. Had t0 move at the 0ther place...Luckily the theatre was n0t full..But 0verall, I enj0yed the movie.
Playing: Pug Jelly - Farewell
Lemme start my entry wif a super BIG sigh.......I didn't g0 out t0day. Initial plan was t0 meet Wan but since it was rainin,cancelled. The feelin really sucky ar f0r me n0w.. but he called me t0 say pr0lly we goin t0 meet on Monday. Well, t0 make up f0r the time l0st I guess.
Darn!! I really need my ICED MOCHA n0w to cheer me up..
I really dunno wat t0 update but I think I jus have t0..Hmmm..sch0ol has been ok ar..Dah ada s0 called new darlin kat class..haha..Munierah!!Yup, dat's her name. We have nvr been in the same gr0up basically c0s we're the only 2 malay ppl in class. Super pathetic l0r..cos there are like s0 many malay ppl, mostly guys ar next t0 my class...Haiz..
Today's less0n is way much lesser stress than ytd..I asked s0 many questi0ns durin Q&A..Haha, dat's me la..Good at askin WHY but when bein asked, I g0 blur..Dang!!
I really feel like my way 0f speakin n0w is turnin int0 typical chinese girls since I'm in RP..even Wan realised dat t0o..haha..can't help it ar. It's not like I wanna speak like dat..t0o much Chinese influential in my class..
0k..I'm g0in to have my life t0moro... I need t0 go out..Dunno where ar..0r even wif wh0..
Today's lesson was a hectic one..Dang!! c0s there are jus certain ppl (or shd i say "person") wh0 jus refuse t0 co-0perate as a team..Haiz..0rg cam gini pun masih hidup lagi.. So the time f0r preparation wasn't enuf. Had t0 d0 research on Physics f0rmulas.. Can't believe dat I'm studyin things dat has c0mpletely n0thin to do wif Events Mgmt..th0ugh I enj0yed Physics durin sec sch0ol days.
Took bus t0 tamp and Wan picked me up fr0m there..He s0on goin to be posted at HQ 2nd Division Tampines CD..c0ol! Quite near t0 his h0use..dun have t0 fork out s0 much $$ on petrol..
Notice to Huda & Siti : Bila nak kluar same2?? Have t0 wait f0r u guys t0 settle first eh? Hmm..All the best k!! Call me perhaps?
My classmate is playin the Chinese song which my fren sent to me. It was like the first Chinese song that I really felt in love with when I heard of it. It reminds me of my fren. I really wonder where is my fren now. Prolly too busy with scool stuff and assignments. Kind of missh my fren a bit. Used to chat a lot and laugh about st0opid jokes in msn. Sorry ppl, if I might sound em0tional now..hehe..
Haiz..jus feelin whatnot..I'm jus tryin to hold on to our friendship.
Today I found out dat one of my classmates applied for Events Mgmt and went for an interview like I did but the person who interviewed her was diff from me. Well, the volume of pressure was similar for us.
Unfortunately she didn't get thru dat course.She said dat prolly the way I spoke to the interviewer was good..dat's y I got thru..haha..like wth!Whatever it is, I'm glad dat I was given the opportunity.
Ok..Aku rasa macam nak...terber*k ar..hehe..
Niwae..goin bankrupt s0on..0ops no0..penniless already!But I have to buy shoes for scool..Prolly from URS ar..Darn!Cos my facilitator today jus explained to us her GROUND RULES..No flips flops..Shuts!!
In class rite now and having...MATHS!! Darn! Seriously, I am really lost. Various equations are given and these kind of questions were taught when..hmm...I was sec scool days. And it was like 4 yrs back when I sat for O Level paper (2003).. The equations dat require u to find the value of 'x' or 'y'. Yup..Algebra!
And the scariest thing is my classmates are lookin like they are enjoyin it..Shutz! How can I not feel pressurized at all?My brain has already turn rusty..Argghh..
Worst still, some of my classmates are very 'kerek' sia..when they are wrong,they jus dun want to accept it.Like wth!Can't be bothered with these kind of people seh.But thinkin of it, I think I'm the eldest since almost of them were from sec scool.Some are nice though.
I'm s0ooo b0red la...Urgghh!! Nobody t0 entertain me..n0 one to talk t0, make me laugh, smile... I kept switchin 0n and off dis c0mp.. I think my c0mp also gettin c0nfused like the 0wner..Dang! Kat msn pun takde 0rg nak layan aku..Sedih seh aku..And there's practically n0thin interestin t0 watch in teevee..st0opid!! Sorry, I'm jus fed-up wif myself..
But yeah..glad dat i g0t my fren t0 teman me t0moro..Yay!!
So when I'm b0red..wat d0 i l0ok for?? FOOD!! But 0bviously n0 food at h0me s0 dat's y I'm still feelin b0red. Like duh!! * rolls her eyes*
0k..I'm c0nfirmed plus ch0p..
B.O.R.E.D
Ok.. I've g0t my lappie already.. excited yet?? N0t!
Dang!!
An0ther thin dat happened t0 me t0day was..I finally g0t my answers t0 half 0f the questi0ns dat I've been keepin wif me f0r these past yrs.. And I did n0t blame any0ne for wat had happened. For me, Everything Happens For A Reason. I believe in fate and I have t0 accept the truth. Thou it hurts me deeply t0 know the real truth, I d0 not harbour any vengeance 0r hate any0ne. I thanked f0r dat pers0n who made me see the light.
Last thin.. I need s0meone to teman me t0 go to RP but it seems like there's n0 one.. sedih kan.. I have t0 go back t0 sc0ol to settle my lapt0p b4 m0nday..And it's early in the m0rnin.. Confirm there will be endless Q.. *prays hard* Sigh..kene la gi s0rang.. Darn!
I had my last 0rientati0n day. Arrived just in time. 0k..today is c0ol..made a c0uple of friends in my class. We were given critical thinkin questi0ns t0 work out soluti0ns in each team. So we had a glimpse 0f an idea h0w the sc0ol system w0rks.
Haiz..Wan didn't even msg me bef0re he left f0r camp. Nvm la.. Dun wanna think s0o much abt him.
Rite n0w I'm really w0rried abt my lapt0p. Shuts!
I called the distibut0r a lot of times. Became s0 tensed up till I br0ke down t0 tears. Temper ar me jus n0w sampai I caused my c0mp speaker t0 drop onto the fl0or. *Sorry*
The facilitat0r was menti0nin abt h0w IMPORTANT our attendance is..It will affect 0ur daily gradin la..Bla Bla Bla...Darn!! Then h0w? I dun want t0 cancel my KL trip.. But absent f0r jus one day is c0nsider OK kan?
Today is my 1st Day of Freshmen Orientati0n Programme (FOP) and it didn't start well f0r me. I rushed 0ut from house s0 dat I w0n't miss 161. Waited at the bus st0p and 161 came..very pack0!! Peak h0urs..ok fine. It was already 7.50am. I called my dad and he asked my br0 to send me to sc0ol. Meanwhile,I waited f0r a cab. Yeah, dat's h0w badly late I was. Cos I have t0 report at 8.30am. Another 161 came and still full. Darn!! Tomoro I'm g0in to take fr0m the int. itself.
I thank God f0r havin my DAD as my father. Has always been my savi0ur. Reached sc0ol ard 8.45am. Gosh! When I entered the class, every0ne was s0lemn. Shutz! But I was n0t the last one to reach.
Urgghh!!! When will I have my laptop? It really gets int0 my thick nerves. Seri0usly. I felt s0o dumb c0s I was the only pers0n w/o a lapt0p. How lame can dat be!
We ended early. Rushed t0 Parkway t0 meet Wan and his br0. Ate @ Banquet bef0re his br0 sent us t0 Piaggio Workshop. Haiz..everythin seemed s0 happy but ended with tears.. We had st0opid misunderstanding. I really br0ke down dis time since d last time when I realised I've bec0me stone-hearted.
I feel very painful inside.. Today is the last day I'm g0in to see him c0s he's b0okin in t0moro. Damn! I hate dis.
I'm g0in to say dis..but pe0ple..pls dun hate me after u read I'm about to write.
I wasn't thinkin clearly. I did stupid stuffs t0 myself bef0re jus t0 prove h0w much I l0ve Wan. And n0w..
In my sis r0om, I opened the wind0w grille. I l0oked outside. It seemed peaceful there. Haiz.. I climbed onto the ledge with shaky hands and legs.. Hot tears c0verin my eyes..I held 0nt0 the grilles s0 tightly..
Darn!! Suddenly I rmbr The Almighty. I d0 not have the c0urage t0 do it.
I'm s0rry.
0h yeah, I'm glad dat u called me after u reached S'pore. It's g0od dat ur back safely and happily! =)
* Maybe it's best to have a black heart c0s it wld be t0o numb to feel hurt *
RUSSEL PETERS
Hips Dun Lie
Shakira feat Wycleaf Jean
You fall hard and fast for the PREPPY man!
If he's conservative, friendly, and proper, he's just your sort! You fall hard and fast for the preppy man. Whether it's because of his handsome appearance or his impeccable hygiene, this man is a safe bet! He's fun and social without being immature or laddish. Your man is refined, associates with a refined crowd, and has a bit of an air tossed in for good measure. This suburban male is always put together well. He's simply cool, calm, and collected. Another quality that draws you to him is his ambition. He aims for success and follows the path that will lead him there. You respect how he always makes time for his friends and has a tendency to be a little silly. With this cheeky, well-groomed, man, you can rest assured that your life will be a dream!
DANG!!!!
Finally I decided which turn t0 take after a l0t of persuasi0n and encouragement fr0m family and friends...I registered f0r the course. Went d0wn to RP wif my dad dis m0rning...Everythin is c0mpletely new t0 me..
Darn! My orientati0n will be on dis M0n..Do I have t0 go thru all over dis again?? New sc0ol, new lecturers, new pe0ple, new envir0nment..Can I jus n0t gr0w? But I heard dis fr0m s0mewhere..
"Life is n0t a destinati0n, it's a j0urney."
Maybe dis is a fact 0f life.
Sc0ol reopen on 17 Apr 2006..Dat's super s0oo fast ar..Really nerv0us..
I'm really clueless (like always?) abt Poly life...Wld it be as g0od as I had durin sec sc0ol and ITE? The th0ught jus scares me..
* Gonna meet ISP peeps dis Wed..Can't wait! Hope everthing g0nna run well.*
I received an email fr0m the poly and guess wat..they RESERVED a place f0r me in Integrated Events Management.Yeah, i kn0w i emphasized 0n reserved c0s after wat I went thru the interview made me feel dun expect they accepted me.
It was hell..darn! I was really disapp0inted wif myself when I left the interview r0om. Can u imagine having s0meone tell u straight t0 the face dat u can't even CLEAR the paper even if I'm given d opp0rtunity? I br0ked d0wn..and w0rse still in fr0nt of HIM..shutz!! I m0cked the sc0ol (no offense t0 the students) upside d0wn left right..Really pissed 0ff. Met nurul at dh0by ghaut..Had ICED MOCHA t0 cool me d0wn and cheer me up a bit.
And n0w, I'm stck in a cr0ssroad which I'm scared t0 m0ve an inch. I dunn0 wat t0 do.
I've been wantin dis c0urse..And here they already 0fferin me a place there, I dunn0 if I shd take it 0r REJECT it. I kn0w life is all abt taking the risk..but d0es it w0rth? I c0uld not even take the pressure HE gave me, then h0w wld I handle when I g0 poly??
And damn it ah..t0moro is the 0nly day left f0r me t0 decide. And when they sent me the email? Ytd! Very rushin ar..
I'm facing a great dilemma n0w..
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